Is this random or what my heart just want to rant?

Well, I have no idea whether this post is only for random purposes or I feel like ranting or writing my thoughts and feelings somewhere.

I have change my blog layout, it looked white and maybe, sad and quiet. Like that tree picture and was thinking about, am I really impossible to understand or I just don really allow people to know my true self? Maybe I choose people to talk to or maybe if you asked me.

Well, luckily I told an idiot lies all the way. I know I am not suppose to do so but sorry, you are just being busybody at the point when I just get to know you. Since you want to know so much, then I just create stories and lie to you. Cannot be blame if you are born dumb? Its hardly people reached my limit that fast after knowing them for such a short period of time. Should I congratulate you for being able to do that? This is for you.

Sometimes I am wondering, why should I blog? Blog about something sad and get people’s attention? or blog about what happened daily and let people know which is like stupid?
I choose to believe a blog is a place for me to get away, rant stuffs or whatever. I should not bother about others, if not I will not be happy.

My mind have been thinking, how do we define LIFE?
-the condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism, reproduction, and the power of adaption to environment through changes originating internally?
-the sum of the distinguishing phenomena of organisms?
-the animate existence or period of animate existence of an individual?
-a corresponding state, existence, or principle of existence conceived of as belonging to the soul?
-a living being?

all these are taken from dictionary.com. These are more of scientific way of saying life. So, is life suppose to be these meaning or something we have control over and changing it?

Questions about the meaning of life have been expressed in a broad variety of ways, including the following:

• What is the meaning of life? What’s it all about? Who are we?

• Why are we here? What are we here for?

• What is the origin of life?

• What is the nature of life? What is the nature of reality?

• What is the purpose of life? What is one’s purpose in life?

• What is the significance of life?

• What is meaningful and valuable in life?

• What is the value of life?

• What is the reason to live? What are we living for?

All this can be explained in different method, either by spirtual or philosophical or other methods.

Life is short and I really do not wish to live in regrets.  However, there will be stuffs which will make you do stuffs that one will regret. I have to choose, between what I want and my fear. Fear is the thing that will stop us from doing what we what. Haiz…

Ohh ohh ohh, I have no idea where my post is heading to now. =.=!

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开始有了爱你的冲动，可是害怕会被拒绝。害怕就连朋友也做不了。所以很难说出口。

November…

Today is 2nd November, the second day of November. 1 more month to brother’s birthday. 1+ more month and I will be going back to Singapore.

Recently I can feel that I cant really control my temper that well anymore. Nevertheless, I will still control it. Do not purposely come and trigger my anger just to try me.

Currently in class, suppose to listen but somehow, I just could not concentrate on what he is talking about. All I see is pictures and pictures which are showing layout of the port, container-handling systems. The powerpoint slides have 74 slides but currently I have seen 50 slides of pictures -.-!

Wondering whats for lunch today but it is expected, bread and bread again! Dutch eat bread for 2 meals daily if I am not wrong.

Studying at Netherland and the Autumn break

I am back from my autumn break! The one week is great as I get to see around Europe. Other than going out with school to Thailand or on cruise, this is the first time I am out not with anyone who sort of look after us but with friends and routes are to be planned and choosing location to go. I want to thank my friends for doing all the planning and bringing me around for the tour.

I never thought that I would have a chance to get to the Eiffel tower; never thought I would go to Paris and London; get to see London eye and London bridge; get to see alot of stuffs and really enjoyed myself alot. Actually there is alot to list but I am kinda lazy to do so.

I hope to come back again after I have earn enough money and slowly travel around, it should be great. =D

Studying at oversea is something new and get to learn about their culture. The culture here is really different. Shop closes really early, unlike Singapore. Still unable to find stuffs like 7-11, the shop here closes at 6pm and after which there is really nothing much to do. Learnt stuffs like time zone and daylight saving because of the changing of seasons.

Getting used to the food here, bread and bread and bread. Luckily bread is something I like and will not really get sick of it.

Hmm, think I shall stop here, will blog again next time. Haha.

Random again and again!

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over… If I never met you, I wouldn’t like you. If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t love you. If I didn’t love you, I wouldn’t miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.

is it possible? ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

hmm…

Woot! been blogging god knows what, I have no idea. =.=!

Situation now: project is getting my emotions unstable, come on, I have to get over this! I guess today is the last lesson for Logistics management and have no idea is it tomorrow or friday will be last lesson for business management.

Super sick of this project seriously, kinda like waste of our time. Soon it will be our 1 week holiday and I am super looking forward for that!

Strange emotions and maybe it’s I think too much…